Goodness, I’m not even comfortable thinking about this, let alone talking about it. Okay, here we go; I have a skin disease. It’s called acne inversa, and it’s incurable. It’s left scarring in between my breasts, in my groin area and in my armpits. I am absolutely paranoid of anyone seeing it because it really is hideous. It’s a real low blow to my self confidence, and a big reason why I want to lose weight. The heavier a person with this disease is, the worse it gets. I never really worried about it until I started being a little more… active with the opposite sex shall we say? Nothing kills a mood more than having someone see those scars and seeing the look on their face. I want to run away and cry.
So. Why am I bringing this up, you ask? Well I have many reasons, actually:
- In addition to the skin post I made previously, I am extremely worried that these scars will remain in addition to flabby skin. I just don’t want to look like a freak.
- I am hoping that the condition will get better when I get down to a more healthy weight.
- This is a blog where I am comfortable pointing out my flaws, and I just kindof felt the need to talk about it.
I have more reasons that I can’t quite think about right now… But anyways, thank you all for listening. I promise this blog won’t be a pity party!
My skin seems very… I don’t know if flabby is the right word… thin and flabby? Yes, I’m going to go with that. I’m extremely worried that if I lose weight, I will have a bunch of loose skin hanging off my body. I just can’t shake the paranoia of that happening. Any suggestions to avoid it?
Posting pictures of my insecurities:
- Arm fat
- Love handles
- Flat ass
- Neck fat
- Back fat
- Lack of neck
-sigh- I’ve got my work cut out for me.